How it works: Each year has a block, each block has a blog section and a music section. The blog part is for sharing thoughts and events, you can click a post for it to expand. The music is to keep track of which songs I liked most this specific year.
Just like last time, here I go again... US work visa did not work, so now I got sent to Toronto, for about a year this time.
Just like last time, there goes my social circle again, there goes Sandy (that's mostly my fault)
Just like last time, there goes my routine again.
Just like last time, there goes the semblence of comfort that I managed to construct for myself.
This constant moving is actually changing me I think.
I find myself struggling to value new relationships beyond the vapid gratification of making them.
Like, I have to sit there and remind myself that this is a whole ass new person and I should value what comes with that.
But then I realize that this is some sort of avoidant attachment bullshit, because all I can think of is how I'm gonna have to leave again.
I'll meet someone and I already know the way I'm gonna introduce myself, and I already know the way they will react, and I already know my reaction to that.
This time I'm speedrunning adapting lol, there's so little emotional investment in this new location that I'm just gunning for the most immediate gratification, with no regard to building something foundational. It's weird because as I say that, I realize my behavior hasn't changed too much... Mostly my mindset.
no reason, I just love this picture, king ziad
I hate that opening the blog makes the music stop... but these are the limits of the website lol thanks PhP
Aurora - Invisible Wounds
